Existential Pain Series (old FB notes)

AVATAR - "Oel ngati kameie", 8 Mar 2010 (Last few weeks) Shrikanth's following comment aptly summarizes the general opinion of my friend-circle and the consensus of Tomatometer* reviews on the movie AVATAR: "It wasn't really an original story or superb (non-art) direction. Read the screenplay and you'll realize that it was all in the visual effects - a lot of the dialogues were downright corny."  I don't disagree.  Yet I am ABSOLUTELY fascinated by it. So much so that I am risking my public image (already a questionable construct) for it. Most of my friends have said that I am nuts. Gentler ones are expressing a mild surprise and disbelief. Brash ones are openly questioning my qualifications and sanity. Obviously, I was keen to resolve the matter but this whole thing had become like a big blob of blurr. Unmoved. There was no way in and no way out. It was just there.  ------------------------------------------------------------------------...

Ethereal, 20 Aug 2010 ethereal today boundaries loosened  objects have become translucent so has my body thoughts have become waves so floating on them slowly -           world is there not as it appears but as it actually is all made of same substance with Midas touch radiant and peaceful waves propagating light touching light  

  Existential Pain (The Ultimate F-Word), 13 Feb 2017 At twenty years of age, the will reigns; at thirty the wit; at forty the judgment. - Benjamin Franklin There is definitely some truth to above statement. It has been a while since I saw you here. What started as a holiday break turned into a longer more self-reflection on life. Funny how numbers impact your subconscious mind because I don't think this would have happened for a non-40th birthday year! As I started thinking about the dreams, goals and life purpose (loaded word but I simply look at it as doing things that matter the most to you and make you happy to the core), one thing I struggled with was my relationship with social media. So I did what I normally do when I am stuck with a question. Old readers of my blogs/notes know this means bombarding people around me with dense questions. Whatever. And yes, in a characteristically Calvin style which still applies even when you are within epsilon distance of 40 (li...

All readers of my notes are familiar with Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs and Existential Pain (EP). If you are a new to these ideas, please go back to my old notes. Or at least google. Or Stop. So, existential pain is back. For the last 2-3 years when I was suffering from labor pains of new motherhood (literally and figuratively), I kept consoling myself to look at the bright side, “See, you no longer have the existential pain... ” But it was there. Lurking in the back. Just waiting for an opportune moment to come out. It is interesting to be at the tail end of youth and at the beginning of real adulthood. Late 30s and 40s that is. Yeah yeah, 40 is the new 20 and what not but who are we kidding really? Would I have done ANY of the things I am doing right now when I was ACTUALLY 20?!! (BTW, these are not the 40s blues, I am not 40 yet even though it is imminent). But they are blues. Blues of the EP when you are at the top of the Maslow’s ladder (ML). By now most of us are settled (...