A Note on Notes, 6 Mar 2013

A Note on Notes, 6 Mar 2013

It has been almost a year since a note tried to come out of me and I am starting to wonder, also worry. This was the place that I frequented regularly to vent my feelings and clear my head. But lately, I am MIA*.   

 So, I thought about it.  

Okay.  Let me be honest. At first I was more like - hey, it has been a while since I have written a cool note (of course all my notes are cool to me!), let me write one. Brightly, I opened a new page, expecting subconsciously that words will just pour out like before. But nothing. There was nothing.  First couple of times it happened, I brushed it aside thinking - oh, I have too much going on and my brain is loaded at this point. But third time made me pause. What's going on? It can't be that I have nothing to say. I mean, I am a highly opinionated person who has strong opinion about pretty much everything. Fashion, politics, events, people, behaviours, ..you name it.  It doesn't matter how much I actually know, I always have a fairly strong opinion and to me it is perfectly valid.  What happened then? Why can't I write?

Rummaging through brain, I found pieces of opinions floating around on some latest nibbles - love and hate relationship with the "The Happiness Project", Oscars, Life of Pi- book vs movie, Why did Ben Affleck have to ruin a perfectly fine movie in the last 15 minutes? Is Jennifer Aniston really pregnant? Why am I not missing the city life**? Is Apple over? Did she really mean it? Why do I have to put up with her (this is a different her)? ....and my new favourite - change management (more on it later). But none concrete. None strong enough to make me want to write. 

I stared at the empty screen. Sternly. I am going to figure this out. 

(Few mins later) Yes, I just did.  

There are two possibilities - 1) I no longer have strong feelings about things and my head is perfectly clear. 2) I have way too many strong feelings and my head is in a total dump. Ha! Now all I need to do is find some supporting evidence for either and live happily ever after.   

Well, if only life was that simple!   

There is one more theory that is trying to raise its head which is saying that I have succumbed. To the pressure of being PC* in this world (like Elinor Dashwood***). It is rather depressing so we will leave it at that.  

Plus, I like short and happy endings.  So I am going to end this note here (learn, Ben, learn). 

 THE END. 

 * I try to keep this blog intellectual so if you don't know what it means, please google it. 

 ** A topic undergone analysis-paralysis. 

*** From Sense and Sensibility. Societal wisdom says, you don't want to be Marianne Dashwood. 

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