Existential Pain (beyond neurobiochemistry, 8 April 2009)

(the Opening)


A thick wall
obstructing the knowing
denying the access
to a very tightly compressed something
a repository
of latent, formless thought patterns
that are yet to convert into emotion, word and action forms.
This is the source
a seed of infinite potential.

Slowly
a flowering
an opening of an aperture.
dense clouds flowing out from inside
into vast outside
disappearing into infinity.


(the Clouds)

Watch different cloud types
surging in no particular sequence, one after the other.

the high clouds, white and light, pure
the middle clouds, grey and layered, disturbing
the vertical clouds, dark and heavy, fearsome
the low clouds, confusing as they come in all sorts of forms and colours; puffy, layered, formless; white, grey, dark.

Each one with different energy
and so many of them, carrying
unlimited possibilities.


(the Flow)

It is a beautiful flow
let it be.

When you interfere
you become a cloud, swing from one form into the other
endlessly.
Then why interrupt?

It is a beautiful flow
let it be.
Stay with it, be present
try to feel it to the core.

(the Test)

To be with the rush only
apply a simple neurobiochemical test:
resistance brings out convulsions
presence brings out smiles.

 

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