Existential Pain (free fall, 6 Feb 2009)

 free fall, 6 Feb 2009

i left the crutches
now i am on my own
falling freely through the gorge
like a leaf
passing one wall frame after the other
i watch in amusement all the pictures
endless views
some of boredom, some fun, some terror, some colour
their beautiful strokes, blues reds greens, pale and bright
- each caught up in its own world
a glance is adequate, else they seize me if i stare too long
taking me for a spin - sometimes for days, months or years
no, i don't want to look at them
just falling freely is so much more fun..

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